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• Wednesday, March 4, 2009
From last post, almost one month ago. Yesterday night, we break up due to our problem. She is more enjoying her single life. She is not happy with me, I can't even make her smile. But other guy can...she is even more happy with them. What I am to her? I don't know. She is even better without me, all the way she just need me. You asked me, did I put or try hard to make you love me more...I am trying to accompany you more..I am trying to make you happy..I am trying to make you feel happiness but..what I did is nothing. The watch we brought together...the necklace we brought together..Today, i saw you wearing your cross necklace...and you are not that down with me anymore. Is like get away from a heavy burden.

That night, you help me put on blanket..I was so happy and feel warm. Happiness is just so short...yesterday you cried..and told me everything. I let you go...I know I only can keep your body but not your heart. The thing i prepared for your birthday is not needed anymore...cause you don't need me beside you anymore. I am not beside of you anymore..take care yourself and enjoy your life. I don't want to see you sitting beside me inside car but looking outside. I know I am not the one for you, the thing you need I can't give.

Baby..still remember when in car, you will hug my hand and call me dear dear? I miss it..I miss your voice..I miss you..I think I don't have the chance to hear it anymore..only can just think back...all in my memory.

The place where we start is the place where we end...last year I fetch you from hostel...This year We break at hostel. Do you know today was my worst day ever? I feel so suffocated inside class..I wanted to run away from there...but you don't know..when i saw you, you like nothing happened. Remember the first message you sent today? You still call me dear...I was happy..I hope that you will still call me that..but it seem like impossible for now. Eight years...and now we back to square one.

Blogged @ 3/04/2009 04:08:00 PM