• Thursday, August 30, 2007

Just now a friend told me about his story, about the girl he love.

He cried in the end, when i look at his eyes, i feel the pain and the sadness in him.

He said that the girl he love got a boyfriend, not long after he confess to her. he said that he should know that because of the changing of her. He said that after meeting her boyfriend, he say that he know why she didn't choose him. He say he lose her and most of his life. He wanted to put an end at it.

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If one day, i am out of your world. Will you notice? Will you even notice that i already leave you? Will you even sad? Will you even think about me? Will you even remember me?

• Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Did you pity someone before? Actually, i pity myself because i can't even run out of my trap.
你有可怜别人吗? 我觉得自己很可怜因为我连自己的陷阱都逃不出来。。。

I pity clown also because even he's sad, he still need to draw a smiley in his face and make people happy.
我也觉得小丑很可怜因为就算他在伤心的时候也必须画上一张微笑的脸。。。。

Don't know why tonight i miss you so much, i wanted to see you now, i wanted to touch your face and tell you that i miss you even i know that is a kind of impossible.
今晚的我特别想你，就算我知道不可能发生也很想现在见到你，摸着你的脸告诉你我有多么的想你

Don't know why i acted differently tonight, maybe i miss you too much. But will you notice me in the corner?
今晚的我很反常，可能我太过想你吧。。你又会发现在角落的我吗?

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When you want to cry, who will you find? Who will be the one beside you?
For me, no one beside me.

Why i want to cry? What i can say is I fall in love in a wrong time.

Last few day, someone asked me "Do you have a girlfriend?". Actually i stun for few second, because i never really think about this question before.For other people, will be easy to answer like Yes or No. For me, is hard. I feel like i got a girlfriend, is just that i can't hold her hand, i can't kiss her, i almost can't do anything with her. Then the person asked, is that Long Distance Relationship? I can say yes or maybe not. I don't know...everything seem like so near yet so far.

Do you fall in love with someone who had a boyfriend? Then i think you will know about my feeling now. Sometimes, you try to cross the border line but when you think about the girl. You just don't feel like doing it because you don't want to destroy a relationship. You only can be beside her quietly. Is like having an affair with her sometimes, sometime you feel like breaking down. You don't feel like giving up her, cause you already fall in love with her too deep and you can't do anything. Even sitting beside her, it seem like got a ocean wide gap between her and yourself. Sometimes you can't control the thing in your life like love. It come suddenly and sometimes it leave quietly.

Someone might think this is some kind of bullshit and the guy is stupid or whatever. Try loving a girl for 1 year, while you knew her very well. And you already confess with her, she rejected you directly. You might say you try before, i will just say, nice dude, you are success in your life of forgetting someone.

• Saturday, August 25, 2007

That's my newest record for my stupid solitaire game.

What happen lately is nothing more than bullshit. What you can get if you were kind to other people? Nothing and you just wasting your fucking time. Did they even appreciate? I don't think so, they just treat as they deserve it. Why don't you even get angry? Because you are just too stupid and let people make fun of you. What happen when that guy had enough of all the bullshit? He can do anything to revenge them. If you think he is weak, think again.

Trust? No way, my trust had decrease.

當我靠在你耳朵 只想輕輕對你說
我的溫柔 只想讓你都擁有

我的愛只能夠 讓你一個 人獨自擁有
我的靈和魂魄 不停守候 在你心門口
我的傷和眼淚 化為烏有 為你而流
藏在無邊無際 小小宇宙 愛你的我

• Monday, August 20, 2007

你有了另外的他。。而我渐渐迷失自己。
朋友说我变的有一些难过。。。
当你有了他，我发觉那一些快乐的回忆，慢慢的离我而去

以前的我，每一天都期望你传短讯给我。。。现在的我不敢再希望什么了。。
以前的我，每一天都想变成可以让你开心的人。。。现在的我希望他能让你快乐。。
以前的我，每一天都想看到你。。。现在的我站在远方看你和他。。

每次你叫我把你忘了，我的心有多痛。你知道吗?
爱你真的要理由吗?
因为你，让我感觉到幸福。
因为你的笑容，让我感到快乐。

我可能没有和别人交往过。。但我可能比一些人还懂的爱。


I can't believe i write those...people you can ignore this post.

• Monday, August 13, 2007

Just joking about the topic, today my dad gonna go back to work. My parents come to have lunch with me and just have some chat. Then i use the HTC touch for 5min and i get bored. Because the phone is purely suck beside the stylish and light weight. It cost rm1999 for nothing, crap. Luckily i didn't ask my dad to exchange with my N93 -_- Today is a legendary day ( rite, my ass ) because SWC ( Solitaire World Championship ) in my comp. I won with 59 sec. Today went college for 1hour only and i just chatting there. The lecturer seem like don't like me, cause keep calling my name for nothing. It will be another boring week for me, nothing to do and exam is around the corner. I just too lazy to study. Next time i will post the goddamn 59sec picture

• Sunday, August 12, 2007

Sometime i just wish i can't predict the thing will happen to me.
Sometime i just wish i can't understand the thing you told me.

When you love someone, you must tell it out to let her know your feeling?
Bullshit i would say, what is the different between after and before you tell?
She don't love you then that's the fucking fact.
It will just make your life miserable.

Girls,
Don't ever tell the guy that love you to find someone better than you.
Is hard to put it down when you already fall in love with someone.

Money,
Something everyone need, almost everything of this earth need money. Life sucks without money.

If you don't like what a guy do to you, just tell them straightly. Is better you tell other people beside him. I rather the girl tell me what she don't like me to do. I don't want to get the news from someone else beside her. It will just hurt more, is like you backstab him. How you want a guy to live among his friend while his friend knows everything that you don't know. If you want to lie the guy, please. Do it perfectly. Don't tell me girl are sensitive toward the action or speaking a guy whether he is lying anot. I know men does sensitive also, sometime they just don't want to speak it out because he still believe in you. Girl always complain guy don't understand them, did you girl try to understand guy? You will said you never let me know, did you? I can tell you, girl hide more than a guy does. If you think " I Love You " is easy to speak out. Sorry, i can tell you that is hard to come out from my mouth.

I know i had to accept something already happened. Is hard but i trying. Sometimes i just don't understand you. For all the thing you did in the pass. I don't understand. Now, i think i am just a mistake in your life. A big mistake in your life and you don't even want to face it. I might be a mistake in your life too. A mistake which make alot of scar in my heart, it torturing my mind. No matter how i cure myself, how many time i try to run away. It will just become more pain. Face it is a good solution, did it work? No people will know, it might work on other people. I don't know mine, whenever i think back of the pass, it hurt alot.

I don't mind fighting if you can give something worth fighting for.

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I cut my finger and it's hurt kinda alot. My shoulder still not yet recover, what a stupid crap pain. Is been a week i never update my crap blog, alot of things happen to me. Like, i barred from exam but i settle it. My business Statistics fail mid term, so need do some stupid six sets pass year paper. My father gonna go back to work soon, tomorrow having lunch with him and my mum then i got chance to use HTC Touch awhile. Yesterday went to One U, is the first time drove there. The parking is suck but the parking fee is cheap only RM1 per entry. and i kinda found out One U is a boring shopping mall, it only got nice food there but is not for me to shop there. Alot of pretty girl there, but most of them are not my taste haha. Yesterday morning, i brought a VS for my car, it made my woofer bass more solid and my car got more power. This morning 4am went to McDonald again having breakfast hahaha. then spend like 1 hour there. McDonald breakfast is the best for me hahaha but still the coffee is suck anyway. Next week is my last week for me to see weather i can stay in KL anot. Is like no more motivation for me stay in kl beside friends. Yesterday is my bad day i think, can't sleep and only feel tired after come back from breakfast. Don't know why feel disappointed whole day. Whatever ba, no one will bother about it.

• Monday, August 6, 2007

Now i only know that my blog beside love thing, i had nothing to write. Maybe my life is just too boring and too simple. Later need go college again, one week had pass. Is like one more step closer to exam, more and more afraid that i fail again. Then i need to say goodbye to KL. Life really empty now day, nothing to do much. That day i saw her, from the time i saw her. My mind gone mess up. I don't know why it will become like that, i forget to take my wallet from car and my car key too. When at home, i just simply like mad man. I don't know why i will become like that. She seem fine to me, nothing i can request more than that. PC fair had ended yesterday, lex brought a Speaker and mun tat brought a mouse and keyboard, i get some CD-R. This PC fair got alot of pretty model but is still the same girl in other event.

Gah, i am hungry. I think i go for my lunch now. Seriously i had nothing to write more,

• Saturday, August 4, 2007

I had lost everything in my love yesterday, i totally lost everything. Nothing left in me, not even a pieces. Because of girl, i cried again. Nothing much i can do to change anything, everything is set. Love is like fire, when you play with it. You will get hurt sometimes. This time i am the one who get hurt badly, nothing to hide anymore. I never feel so empty before, i thought everything will be fine after this. But i know the thorn is still inside my heart, i feel so pain every time i wake up.

I think i will cut off the crap, nothing need to be mention anymore. PC Fair is here, i think alot people will go KLCC and grab the things they need. I don't think this time i got anything special need to buy. Shoulder is still pain, i think something wrong in there. TUMOUR maybe lulz . Who cares. My dad just brought a laptop, i don't know what's the point he buy that. Hope he give me hahahaha. So i can multitasking like, play 2 hero in a dota game or chat to myself using MSN.

Just wonder whether i still can stay in KL for how long more. Maybe i will kena sack out from College (Hahahahha) 2 more week for my stupid BM class and i get rid of it. The thing i worry most is my BS. Sucky subject ever.

P/S : i love someone i shouldn't, but if i got choice again, i will still choose you. even the result is the same.

• Thursday, August 2, 2007

Gah, i got double posted!!! Whatever, i purposely do it.

Just put Yoko Yoko on my shoulder, it was damn hot or whatever you name it. Maybe i apply too much on it. Just feel like the previous post is not enough, i will add on some crap at here!!

My room, i shall post some picture of my room at Ipoh some other time. It got every pieces of my memory there, happy and sad. No matter how many times i clean my room or i kept your things in my cupboard. I still think of you. I went to every place that we went together, i still can remember every place and everything we do there. My life is never been complete before.

The day we went back together is the day i most remember in my life. Everything you did, everything you said. The warm is still with me, but i think you had already forgot...

Lately just feel pain and tired, maybe i getting old or my liver is dying. I just can't get what i want, maybe this is my life. But i still don't want to give up. I know i want it and i know what i am doing. Still wondering, when will be my first love. Gahahahahhahahha (Yes, I am a goddamn virgin in love) I don't know whether i ready or not, but i want to give a try. I am serious in love and relationship stuff (Look so fucking fake)

Warning to all ladies : I am freaking ugly and fat. You might be the next target for my love. G_G

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Having my day rest at Ipoh for 3 day and 3 nights. Nothing much happen in Ipoh tho, just went to service my car for 2days. Then went to some accessory shop put Sub-woofer, Amp and speaker. Most of them is Blaupunkt Item. It cost rm2500++ The result come out kinda nice, the base and treble for me is enough. Nothing more i want to request. Then i changed my old PDA phone P910i to nokia N93. I think thats my thing which had changed. At Ipoh, most of the time i spend with sleeping. Nothing i can do there, just rush all my car things. My shoulder never recover, just continue pain and some more reach until the neck part. Whatever, let it pain until i die. I took some picture at Ipoh, now i just waiting someone return my cable stuff.

Today, just had 2 test. Microeconomic and Business Statistics. Fuck it, stupid test ever. I only know about Economic and i had no idea for BS. I think i need to go for one more test. Passing marks 30 and i get less than 30marks. Fuck it, later get barred then i go back Ipoh. YAY, nice food hahahahahaha.

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