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• Sunday, March 22, 2009
Yesterday, I went to clubbing with my friend and mun tat of course. We drank a lot, not even one hour, we finish one bottle of Barcadi. Normally we need a lot of people and until 3am only can finish 2 bottle but yesterday, we leave at 2am and we already finish 2 bottle and 3/4 bottle of gin.

Great night? I don't know.
Happy? I don't know.
So I back to the real me? I don't know.

Mun tat and I vomit a lot. Damn suffering..headache and those, do we even happy? I am not sure.
Everyone had their own problem, is always I look good for you and you look good for me.

Some how, I feel like a lot of thing change in this one year. Good and bad, meet back a lot of friend lately, I talk to them and get to know their news lately, they are moving on but seem like I am the only one who still stuck in the beginning. My friend said we had to say bye bye to our teenager life, is time to face to truth of life. Depending on our parents is not our solution forever. When I see this, I am silent..I am thinking. We can't be so selfish anymore, keep want them to worry about us.

Yesterday, I cried in car. No one knows, just sobbing. Cause remind me a lot of things, some kind of flashback. The year we being together is seem so short yet so long. One of my friend said I look tough in the surface but not all the way through. She is right, we almost is the same kind of people. I understand her's and she understand mine.

My heart is bleeding and no one would care.
When I stress and no one to share.
I had screw up my life not just once, but many times.
Maybe this is the last time I would do anything to save it.

Tonight, I will plan everything for that night. I don't know whether will you like it but that's the only thing I can do for you now. Life for me now is tough, it will never tougher than seeing the one I love love someone else. You really changed a lot, really a lot, not that jesZ full with confident and style. You told me that you will never give up heels for anyone else, today you gave it up because of him. From that night, you said you thinking of giving it up because of him. I already know that I had lost you because that's one of important thing in your life. I said you are not cindrella anymore, you said you already don't have the glass heels. Even the glass heels in front of you, will you wear it and leave? I don't think so. The path you choosen, I can't comment much about it. Last time, everything you did it because of feel. Now I think mostly because of him. You said you looking forward for that night, I hope it can give you and me some good memory. It might not that perfect as you think, but I will give everything of me that night.

Blogged @ 3/22/2009 03:56:00 PM