Collomack

2010-01-23T11:28:00.002+08:00

Finish two paper for my final and three more to go.
Feel like is going well for this semester since the two five credit hour paper is gone.

Planning for something.
Well, it is some kind of secret.
Sometime I visit my blog, I don't know what to write.
Seem like my life need some spice up!

Chinese New Year is around the corner,
hopefully can have fun in this new year!

Some of the things,
fixed or found back doesn't mean the same with the original.
The scars is always there.

2010-01-04T13:02:00.003+08:00

Time flies, is 2010 now.

Did you ever miss 2009?
A lot of thing happened in 2009
Sad and Happy.
People changed, things changed.
I changed.

What had you learned in 2009?
I learned a few thing.
About myself, girl, friend, love and money.
There's no balance between them.
Love? Is like sand in your palm, the stronger you hold, the lesser sand will be in your sand.
In the end, you will get nothing.
But is it true? Not all really.
What I give won't be less, is just people changed and in wrong timing.
People asked Why can you survive? Its just power of adaption.
I do what I needed to do to survive in the environment.

New year, everyone should have new dream, new goal and new life.
What's yours? I had mine.
What do your enjoy in your life? I enjoy the process.

"You asked whether did I do something to make our love go on.
Now, I want to know, did you?"

2009-12-15T20:09:00.002+08:00

You tell me that you didn't understand me.

You tell me that you can't understand me.

Did you try?

Trust?

Believe?

Did you?

For you, what am I?

Joker?

Clown?

For you, I am just extra.

2009-12-15T00:09:00.002+08:00

Did you ever realize choices made you weak?

Let's say Ice Chocolate is your favorite drink all the time and you definitely choose it whenever it was there.

You were thirsty, you walk in to 7-11. Walk to the fridge and see what's inside, you saw Ice chocolate there but you didn't take it in the first place. Why? Because there were some other choices beside that. You would like to try other but you know that Ice chocolate will still be your favorite no matter what.

In the end, you will still choose Ice chocolate. Some people just like to choose. No matter in the situation I said or in life. But my point is, do you even know what you want in the first place?

2009-12-07T08:57:00.001+08:00

Yesterday went for shopping, what a great shopping due to sales and shop-til-you-drop session between me and Miss. jesZ

Having fun all along, tried a G2000 shirt but not suit due to the shoulder length of mine is kinda wide. Too bad, in the end only can Clay and one T-shit from echo park which is quite cute. And then in that morning thought bring her to a brunch shop which I went there once but unfortunately that it renovating or close down, IDK. In the end, we had our brunch at few shops beside. We tried Fish and Chip and Big breakfast which is quite nice.

Then we went to Midvalley to shop, eventually I know one is not enough for her, so I suggest go another one which had shops that Midvalley doesn't have which is One Utama. In the process of shopping, we tried to find Kitchen and we walk around the 1U like for two or more times. Then in the end we didn't get anything there.

Then we went to dinner at delicious then we having nice time over there, enjoying the food, time and environment. I didn't failed her at least. Just hope she is happy and enjoying her time.

我还有想要爱你的冲动
我放手
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

2009-11-19T14:05:00.003+08:00

To bi Rex

If you feel sorry for me, I had some easy solution for you.
Give me back my dream
Give me back my girl
It's time to let me give you pain
It's time to let you feel miserable in your life

If you can't do so, don't say sorry because you just didn't intend to fix the problem after all

2009-11-08T21:46:00.002+08:00

It's November 8th today, back from Malacca today.
It's a tiring trip and I think I am sick, again, is fever. It remind me about last year, ten panadol in one day, if I took two more, I will be dead.

Anyway, I am not longer a teenager. Whatever I do also need to think properly.
Anyway, thanks to people that attend to my birthday night. Although I didn't do anything, but really thanks to them who made my day.

"Thanks to you, you made my night."

She's my dream girl, gonna make her my only
She's my dream girl, I want you to put it on me
She's my dream girl, wanna make her my baby
I'm goin' crazy for you

2009-10-19T23:01:00.002+08:00

Half month had been pass, college re-open, currently is week 3 for me. College was ok for me, just a bit bored, really bored stay at the same college for 3 years and almost 4 years for me. Hopefully this time can graduate, just got my result few day ago. Result not so bad, just out of my expectation anyway.

Most of the class start at morning, is quite torturing for me and another problem in grouping stuff. Ah, people just suck don't they? Hidden attitude. Today should be had a chance to see you, but unfortunately even the weather don't let me to.

Big day coming soon, but can't get any good plan. But received some present from my parents. And now seeking a big one for it. Hopefully can get a nice one.

"It's ain't something I wanted now"

2009-09-28T01:15:00.002+08:00

Woot, is been two week huh.

Done with exam and having holiday right now. Been to many places in this holiday, to shorten it
It should be look like this KL -> Ipoh -> Cameron Highland(Pahang) -> Bukit Tambun (Pass thru Kedah and before Pulau Pinang) -> KL -> Genting Highland(Pahang) -> KL (Currently)

Quite a trip, first time drive to cameron and bukit tambun, having fun while driving tho. Never try to speed down hill from cameron and is like playing arcade keep shift down gear to enter corner. Went to bukit tambun for seafood and very first time eat crab and it taste nice and fresh. Then come back KL and went to Genting with my classmate which is also first time went to holiday with them, we having a lot fun over there although didn't sleep well that night due to cold, but first time ever run thru heavy rain in Genting and whole body get wet. What a unforgettable memory in Genting, for the first day up there I also wearing the same shirt I wore when I go up last time. Many memory around there, I miss it. But still missed the Space shot, and I swear I must play it next time, I already planned go up there for theme park when college start. Whole class gonna go and play space shot!

This weekend gonna go Pulau Pangkor, I think I gonna have a lot fun in this holiday. First time feel like my holiday is packed with plan, hopefully my next one too. I always like to visit new place and drive there. Although is tired but I really have fun with driving, after I work I am sure I wanna get one nice car for myself. Sometimes I really miss you, but when I know you got someone there, I feel relief that he can take care of you. I am just not good enough for you.

Love, lately a lot of things happen but hopefully everything will go back to normal soon. It made me think a lot and understand a lot of things. It always can make a people grow up and move on.

2009-09-14T20:39:00.002+08:00

There is no Heaven above my head and no Hell below my feet. There's only sky.

Just finish my revision on ADIS left only final revision for tomorrow or maybe later.
This few day just spend my time at home for study and take nap.
Always can't sleep well lately, will just wake up after few hour of sleep.
How I wish I can sleep like last time.
Seem like I didn't seen you around for quite sometime. I wonder how are you.
I can't just tell you that I miss you.
I been keep myself down to study cause you don't want I been distracted with anything else.
But sometime I just can't stop thinking of you.
Anyway..all I wanted to say is just I miss you.

2009-09-13T01:40:00.002+08:00

I'm lost, lost in a thick fog.
I don't it where I'm going.
But I hope there's light to lead me out of here.

Lately my insomnia is quite serious due to always can't sleep well at night and sleep very little. I don't know whats happening in me. Is quite torturing.

I bet you had forgotten the thing I asked you about.

2009-09-04T16:02:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to watch Final Destination, this one suck to the core compare to the earlier. I don't feel scare but funny to me. You will just see some blood scene and some organ split out. Maybe they doing it for 3-D that's why it look suck in normal screen.

Found out that, I always sleep very late nowadays. Always like 4-5am in the morning if the next day is not exam day. My mum lost her phone yesterday, I wonder how she lost it since she like to talk on the phone so much. Lately, someone said I always look moody. Maybe I just bored or something. My brain just can't function well.

To someone,

I really appreciate about that few night we spend together and chat a lot of stuff between me and you. I really enjoy your company, for all the thing you said. I really think about it and I can accept it. Maybe is really too early for us, but yea, I really hope one day we can make it together.

2009-09-02T02:27:00.000+08:00

總是過度壓抑圓滑，內斂，聰明而富有交際手腕。
總是知道自己要做什麼，總是有一套清楚的生命版本在心中，
常為了達到目標，而壓抑自我情緒，只為了要呈現最完整及完美的狀態。
有時這也造成了感到些許悲傷及對事物的冷漠，
因為在幽默風趣的外在表現下，其實內心最深處的孤獨感是沒人能明白的。

2009-09-01T21:35:00.000+08:00

Lately, I didn't sleep very much. One of my newest record would be slept 2 hour in like 30~40 hours of awake.

"It's been long time that I don't have such feeling,
I don't know how long it would take me to fill your heart with me,
But I am willing to try.
Maybe I am not that perfect for you,
But I hope I can be the one for you"

P/S : Exam is on thursday, yay?

2009-08-26T23:31:00.000+08:00

"If it's gonna be rainy day
There's nothing we can do to make it change
We can pray for sunny day
But that can't make the rain stop
Feeling like you got no place to run
I can be your shelter til it's done
We can make this forever
So please don't stop the rain."

Finish programming at last?
It's all depend on tomorrow.
I am exhausted, and seem like going to fall sick soon.
I don't know what the hell I can do anymore.

2009-08-18T22:00:00.000+08:00

Very long time didn't update my blog, it seem like a dead blog.
Week 13 now, seem like so near to final exam.
Haven do any revision and two more assignment to go.

Last week, I went back to Ipoh and having fun over there. Seem like quite long didn't went back home but kinda rush in that two day. Service my car and changed something, get a new shirt from G2000 blu look nice with jeans.
Today got my maths and programming mid-term result, expected result for math but not for programming. Nothing much about my college, same-old-boring day as usual. Today met Sophia and Elishia on the way to canteen. Elishia look different from last time, hmm.
Anyway, my window live messenger got some problem and only can go to facebook.
Anyone wanna find me Please go to facebook and find me, I will be on whenever I am in front of the computer.

2009-08-04T23:38:00.000+08:00

If couple consist of two 50% of people, I would rate myself 20%.
Obviously I am not stronger or better than anyone else,
I can't be superman and be perfect, you should knew it very well.

Actually, something you should knew it long time ago,
Is not you don't believe in it, is just that you believe that you can change it,
I am not the one who you think, but I am myself.

Things that you know about is very less.

You think that I changed? This changed is made by you.
I am not you think, I am still myself.
Because what you know about me is very little.

Life might not as good as before,
but when realize the thing I lost, I rather move on.
I am not longer a superman, that can do anything for you.
I am not longer a teddy bear that can let you hug whenever you need.

2009-07-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

Everything is so close yet so far, sometime I wish we can go back the time we were before.

But things changed, it will never come back.

And I don't think I love you anymore

Like the girl that you shouldn't, that taste is pitiful.

"那天我们聊了一整夜

说了过去又讲现在

可能是酒真的有点烈

笑到最后都落了眼泪

一转眼你已有了他在身边

而我的梦想远在天边

对那段艰辛我们都很怀念

如今只剩记忆缘分的沉淀"

2009-07-27T23:49:00.000+08:00

Internet is awfully slow lately, luckily I able to survive with the speed.

Suddenly feel down, mood swing maybe? Perhaps.
ADIS Test on Wednesday, 9 chapters had to be covered. And I trying to revise by starting from the back. Those notes look awfully like crap.

My life is dull, need something it to spice up, surround with Assignment and Tests.
What will you do whenever you don't have any money? Sleep? Stay at home and eat bread?

Lately, do some shopping spree by buying some new clothes. Yes, I am crazy.
Did some changes in my car, minor one. Yes, kinda waste of money.
So, I am pretty broke now. Spare me some penny or food, please?
Still have some plan in my mind, bumper for my car. Nothing can change this!
New phone perhaps? My phone is dying (YES!).

Today, at my case study class, I argue/discuss/talking/yelling with my tutor. For no reasons, seriously. I don't know why I becoming so aggressive lately, maybe that's me? Just can't stand with stupidity. I changing? Perhaps, to the good way I think! And, when dinner time, I saw the watch, it make me happy. Maybe there's still something link it together, maybe in deepest side of our heart and will be never spoke out. Maybe that's the secret. It's always good to see you in healthy, but you look pale and tired in other way.

I just can't be good am I? I always show the true face and dark side of me.
Today, Vincent say I am so realistic toward things. I stun for 1 second, I think he the first one say so. Congratulation, you won nothing sir! Yes, I am realistic, I can't give myself any fairy tales, not even my close one. That's what people don't like, don't they?

Anyway, I don't want my blog with a wall of text. I really hope I can have a good birthday this year. Maybe some Chivas on my table? 21 bottles maybe! or 21 years old Chivas will do! Although they taste sucks! Give me some alcohol. That will do.

2009-07-23T19:13:00.000+08:00

Missed the time when go up Genting and have "Yum cha" session.

Wonder who will interested in that? Haha, some people just will say waste time, waste petrol and waste money. Chilly night with a cup of hot chocolate is just so nice.

Tomorrow gonna go shopping and get some new clothes, hopefully can get it here.
Today just give back the result of Computer Network, the result was good for me due to didn't really study much on it. And yesterday went out with my gang, which is Bad people group. Just because we stab people in front and back too much. We thought we make a group t-shirt but unfortunately that shop is no longer available but only let a shop only provide wording. Then we went to Ed-Ed found some funny T-shirt and feel like buying it but at last I didn't do it. So hopefully tomorrow can get some new clothes.

2009-07-21T21:07:00.000+08:00

Is been two week after my last post, nothing much really happen in this two week.

Just something happened to my car, just fixed it. Spend about rm220 for it. Quite satisfy about the stuff I got it. But anyway, I think nobody gonna notice about it =x

Got some good news about myself, I passed all my mid term, although not in very good result but at least I did it. Just hope my Computer Network won't screw me up. Today, I heard something from my friend which is two or three lecturer said I am cute, I wondering what kind of cute? Maybe I am just way too talkative in class. By the way, CONGRATULATION to Mr. Woo Mun Tat that had officially graduated from TARC last saturday. I was wondering what is my feeling during convocation. Happy? Sad? No idea at all, just hope I can graduate smoothly this time. Last week, my friend keep say I lost my mind / Crazy due to I keep laughing. Maybe I lost my mind, I really hope so.

Things that related us together is getting lesser and disappeared. Things is so different now, is seem like a pair of stranger that knew each other so well. Maybe that's the pass maybe I don't understand actually. The smile faded away, the memory craved in my mind so deeply, and the pain is so true.

"痛是怎么也避免不了，所以我開始學習笑,但是開心學習不了，所以我努力用壓力覆蓋心情.可惜，我有多愛你并不知道"

2009-07-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah, for unknown reason can't upload just now. This is the small dishes they give you before the meal come and it's refillable. This can fill you up with rice, really nice. Due to can't upload again, I shall try it tomorrow. Anyway, this few day I in love with cracker with Jam

2009-07-06T23:24:00.000+08:00

Can't Remember

Quite a lot thing happen in this two week, explore quite a few places. Like Sri Hartamas, I still wonder how to go there from my place due to is nearer. Last Saturday went there and had my dinner and then movie after that, first time went there but I feel nice over there when at night, a lot variety of food there. That night I had Korean food for my dinner.

This is something called "Bi-bi-pot". I swear it sound like that when you order. Is actually rice in a stone pot. Very nice and all vegetable beside the crabsticks and egg. This rice special cause you had to mix with chili paste which I mix a lot that night and taste nice.

We also order a steamboat which contain Kim-chi soup and two maggie mee. Inside got pork, vegetable and others. Very nice soup when you drink at cold place. Not very spicy thought. That place called Dao-Rei ( Hope I didn't spell it wrongly.) A very nice place to dinner and there is famous with BBQ, they selling pork and beef but quite expensive for a student like me. Due to can't upload picture. I decide to update later or wait until I can upload picture!

2009-06-25T19:25:00.000+08:00

Changed

Now only I know I changed a lot to her, I become more cruel? Cold heart-ed?
No idea, can't be very bad do I? Things do change, so do you. You can't see what I saw.
As I said, something you doesn't saw and listen doesn't mean it never happen.
You saw things changed, but did you notice the thing didn't change?
I never am a good guy, not in real life nor in fairy tale.
Promises I hold, anyway, talk is cheap huh?
So I had to accept that I changed? Maybe yeah.

2009-06-23T21:27:00.000+08:00

Birthday Plan

Anyhow, I don't have any good idea but some funny one. It may become a good idea anyway, before that I wanna ask some girl about animal. This few day, I keep saw girl ( No matter is school girl or college girl ) keep avoiding cats and dogs. They really so scary? Need until avoid it like jump away and scream like hell? I really wonder.

Well, back to the topic.
Some people suggest me some plan on my birthday, thanks to them first!

1. Bikini Party, held at beach or some-where.
2. Pole Stripper party, held at club or some-where.
3. Clubbing, held at club.
4. Travel, my choice will be Perhentian or Bali!

Or well, it seem like nothing will happen on my birthday. Maybe make myself disappear one day will be good idea after all. Anymore idea people?

2009-06-18T22:59:00.000+08:00

A paper boy wanted to get the flower? It seem like no matter how hard he tried, he just can't get the flower with his hand. He only can look it from there, it's near but seem so far away.

Lately just feel so tired, no idea why. Just plainly tired.

Well, just feel like my shopping list it keep adding on and my dad suddenly ask me how I gonna celebrate my birthday this year. This is the first time he ask me about it, maybe he don't want me pass with nothing as usual. But I can't think of any plan to celebrate it, I am just a boring guy anyway. Anyone can supply me with a plan, a good one perhaps. So that I can have an idea to do it.

2009-06-16T22:59:00.000+08:00

I like the way she rock her hips

Let see the defination of Fine, Nice body or Pretty Face?

I had no idea, anyways, I added shopping list at my bar there so I did some shopping about it but unfortunately that I had to give up that slipper due to is not what I wanted and I saw a new Puma-ferrari jacket but I end up didn't buy and Bags too. But I did do something about my hair and I get myself a new spec which I already wanted since New year til now. Well, still some shopping to do and hope my budget will allow me to do so. And college is pretty tiring nowaday and keep fall asleep no matter in what class.

Well, not much to update but things will change and it might already happen while you didn't notice. Things can be pretty nasty if you want, to get respect, you must show respect to people.

2009-06-03T18:21:00.000+08:00

New Leaf

June had arrived, almost been to college for my new semester for two weeks.
Last week, I just fetch my dad from KLIA. This remind me of something during the journey to airport. I really hope to see that essay. So fast it's been one year, it seem so fresh and new.
Anyways, this semester seem so tough and tiring due to the timetable. Well, of course I hope everything will be fine and go smoothly. This weekend gonna go raub, pahang for some wedding which is my dad friend. Had to fetch him there, hope I still remember the route to there. After listen to my friend problem lately, I found out that trust really important in between two person. Just because of one sentence, it will ruin the whole thing that we build.

Not going to post about my life only, today I wanna show something about my domo~

One day, my mum decided to fried some chicken wing. Domo and I was so exciting about the chicking wing.

This is only part of it, domo already had his saliva drop til floor. Luckily before he able to grab it I already move the fried chicken to another place.

When the chicken wing is serve on plate, domo already wanted to feast with his big mouth. Luckily before he eat, I take him away from the chicken wing.

After other dishes is done, I give one piece of drumstick to domo but he seem not happy with only one drum stick, so he take the plate of chicken wing and keep eating non stop.

In the end...

This is what happen to domo, full until upside down. The End.

2009-05-24T16:31:00.000+08:00

Disappointment

Tomorrow is first day to college for year two,
didn't feel anything yet.
A lot of disappointment in my heart, really.
Nothing I wanted to say anymore.

2009-05-14T14:41:00.000+08:00

Goodbye to my love

Today, I at IMAX which kinda famous for Ipoh people last time. Now is like a dead shop to me, until now I only notice got ten people or less here. And guess what? I found the game I wanted to play but unfortunately I can't play for don't-know-what reason. So just fuck it.

To Mr. Lex if you saw this, I saw the fattest-dude which play in Game Vault at here just now.
So bored right now and hungry too, don't know what to eat later. Life still the same and I complete my RPG game in PSP for like 5th time in a row? Due to I keep play the safe game. HAHA.

Well, life sucks to me.

2009-05-12T14:19:00.000+08:00

No longer

This few day, I think is most boring day ever. Due to I just keep playing PSP until my eyes burn and red and dry. Yea, this few day don't feeling well. Anyway, no people will bother unless is h1n1. I think i am awesome lately, can spend more than 20minute on newspaper! I think I am really bored, yesterday my mum asked me when I going back to KL, I still wonder about the date. 20? 21? 22? 23? I had no idea at all. Yesterday night I received a call from Mr. mun tat which is a surprise, just normal chat. And wish him can find a job soon. First time feel bored like hell which I need to lurk and troll in facebook for nothing and I brought alot pirated DVDs.

Emo time!
If you don't want to be emo, please alt + F4 now!!1!11satu!11

Don't know why, lately my brain running quite fast. Maybe alot nice food around and keep eat and sleep. So yea, a lot thing running in my mind too. What I feel is not love, really don't seem like is love for me. But anyhow, it's doesn't matter anymore because is no longer my concern. I did what I can.

2009-05-09T15:30:00.000+08:00

Back in Town

Just went back here at Thursday, life gonna be dull.
Nothing else I can do, just rot a home. Like waiting for meals and sleep.
Well, trying to make my life meaningful by doing some shit over here.

Life in Ipoh is like damn slow and seem like is not moving on,
Is like stuck in between, sort of lifeless.
Even in Ipoh, my life also like in KL due to I also go out buy food myself.
Not much different, just that I even boring and no life here.
A good thing is just save money, hah!

Really can't think what to write over here,
but when alone can think of many stuff to write,
like an essay. Anyway, just wish every mother "Happy Mother Day" tomorrow.

Will update soon

2009-05-02T20:18:00.001+08:00

7 seconds

Went back to home for one week, didn't do anything much there.
Maybe trying to make some changes over myself,
70% success I think, did my body check also,
nothing much wrong I guess, then eyes got some problem but luckily can drive.
That's the longest week I ever go thru, it seem like the time didn't go on very fast.
Bored? I had no idea, Fun? Not really when you had nothing to do.
Spend sort of a lot money this week, on car and myself.
Yesterday, I happen to be at the town. I pass by the stall that sell chicken wing.
Then I decided to stop and buy some, 2 pairs I brought. I still remember we brought 4 pairs before which you finish the most. Haha..I still remember you said the skin is like paper. And you liked it a lot. Now I know why you can finish it even a lot, some changes in Ipoh which is minor thing I think. Parking ticket is implement in Jusco (Kinta City), New old town in Gunung Rapat (Nice place to yum cha) and Polo Ground changed a lot by adding a small walk path around the lake. More and more feel like is a dead town for Ipoh due to not much people around and youngster I should say.

Well, nothing to say much now. Maybe later

2009-04-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

Fairy Tale and Reality

I believe most of the people here can differentiate the two thing in my title.
But which one to live with is up to you, whether you wanted to live with your fairy tale or reality.
I choose reality, everyday facing problem that we had to deal with.
And not just living by thinking how to get life better and do nothing.
Maybe I am such person in the pass, but I realize that I can't go on like that cause this is not what I wanted in my life.

Everyone go thru a lot of thing like life, social life, family and relationship.
Actually how many people won't complaint with their life?
And how many people don't know that simple is nice?
But how many people can do it? I can't but I trying.

Human is selfish and greedy, I had to admit that. One is not enough, two might be but when three is in front of you, trust me, you will get it. When thinking of something, you will first think of yourself before anything else. True face of human? Deal with it.

That day, I chatting with jesZ. This topic suddenly pop up from nowhere, if wanted to flashback, almost all of my decision for her is reality for her. Cruel? I don't know. I didn't give any fairy tales or dream to her, I can't give her forever promise, I can't give her what she want and I am not a romantic person. Being with me isn't that fun or happy to her. I can't do much thing, I am not those people hang out a lot or know how to have fun. I am a bored person and always face to the computer although nothing to do. I am not those happening guy around, I am just ordinary person, ordinary student. Although I got some plan about our future but I didn't say it much due to I doubt my ability to make it true.

In your life, sometime you just had to face the reality no matter what. That's life, deal with it and you will improve yourself. In your life, you will meet a lot and different kind of people. You had to deal with it and live on. Although sometime you feel like life is suck but think back those happy things and those person who love you. They should bring you some energy and motivated.

Life, is some sort of game. You play it since you born, not your choice. No reset or restart. The rules is you must play it. Everything you do will gain experience, every decision you make will change your life. No people can determine that you are wrong or right, is your call. In every stage of your life, will be something to make you grow up and be more mature. Some people want to be rich, some people wanted to be famous, and some people wanted their life simple. Which one you wanted to be? Fame and wealth I guess. With the money you got, not much thing is a problem for you. With the fame you got, a lot of people will respect you. How to quit the game half way? Commit Suicide will be a good choice for you, warning to you, as I mention no restart or reset button in our life. After the decision you made, you had to move on and don't look back. Make things right.

This seem like an emo post and wall-of-text post. But it will be my post for this week due to having holiday at my home before my last paper. For one week, I wanted something to change, at least abit. My feeling now is kinda confuse, for this year, this maybe the worst semester I ever had. A lot of thing happened and changed. Really..I hope something good will happen soon.

2009-04-23T23:26:00.000+08:00

你好吗 (How Are U?)

That day suddenly this song in my mind, most of the song that I kept last time mean something to me. Happy and sad, when I play this song, a lot flashback running in my mind. Between this few year, really a lot thing changed and happened. My attitude, my behavior and my social life. That day mun tat and I chat a lot about our pass, and we laugh a lot. Exam is passed although still one more paper to go but it seem like a long holiday for me, at least that's what my feeling right now.

Two more day I will be going back to Ipoh, my home. Miss my mum and grandma, and my bed of course. Things will change after this time going back, at least that's what in my mind. Oh well, something gonna have big changes in this year, my life! Hope everything will go well!

P/S: PRAY HARD HARD! LOL!

2009-04-16T23:43:00.000+08:00

当你疲倦坠落的时候

能抓住我的手

在你最痛苦的时候陪你度过
难过过了天晴朗了我就走

其实也想好好爱你
我对你感觉胜过爱情
对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
我并不是你的唯一
我就算没资格爱谁

温柔的双眼

沉默守护一切

一颗心为你纯粹

期待你有一天

回头看看我

哪怕是只有一秒的梦

也值得追求

当你真的躲不过诱惑

我安然地放手
看你在别人怀里
还微笑祝福你

p/s:Some truth is better to be hidden

2009-04-16T00:53:00.000+08:00

Tuesday just pass up my assignment and today just finish my presentation and tomorrow gonna do my make good test which just for one mark? Oh fuck it.

Really..I feel the changes.
And I know the differents
Hope you understand what I said

2009-04-05T15:56:00.000+08:00

If I got a time machine, I would go back to the time and make things right.
But that's dream, I am in reality.
Regret won't make things right, I only can accept the thing is happened.
Today, I asked you some silly question. Hope you don't mind, I really wanted to know.
Today, we didn't call each other the name we always did.
Today, I am someone for you.

Friday, I celebrate your birthday with you.
We had our dinner at Ara Damansara, restaurant name FULLHOUSE.
From the first sight I saw it, I knew this is the shop you like it so much.
Then I decided to do reservation and bring you here.
At there, I saw something you will like it a lot.

A earring look like ribbon and with two little diamond.
Same as the shop, like it when the first sight.

We having a nice dinner over there and chat a lot. First time see you smile like that being with me. Love to see you smile..then you got your favorite drink over there, Lavender.

Then we went for movie, due to too early we reach there. We sit at the cinema there for 1 hour plus and we just keep chat. Long time didn't watch movie with you, that day you ate the thing you like to ate when watching movie. About the movie, nothing much to say. Maybe I can't concentrate on it, just keep looking at you. Maybe I know not much chance to watch movie with you anymore. In the car park when I gave you the present I made, you cried. My heart was so pain that time..but still I try to joke around to cheer you up. I tell myself to control cause is your birthday, should give you some nice memory. I didn't know I success or not but can see you smile is the point of all this. The 18 pieces of picture got it's own meaning, I wrote it on the back..

After the movie, we went to look out point. First time go with you, seem like you like it a lot. I brought you mini donuts, I ate one of them so that can become 19 pieces which represent your 19th birthday. Although the main night of Saturday, the one who besides you won't be me. And I know something will happen on that night. As what I expected it happened, nothing I can do about it and nothing I will do about it. As I told you, as long as you are happy. I am fine with it.
At there, we didn' talk much. Not because nothing to talk..is just silent also can be the word for us.

It's raining outside, normally this kind of weather you will ask me buy you porridge for warm up your body but now I am not the one do this for you. For everything I do for you, might not some important thing or big stuff for you but I did it with my heart. Listening mayday song..and it's something I wanted to tell you.

突然好想你

Maybe I am not the first one who wish you or the last one,

Happy birthday vevvy, your dream come true le..wish you happy forever :)

2009-04-05T02:14:00.000+08:00

-Edited-

The post before edited is no longer important.
Today, is your birthday. I obviously didn't really sleep and sent wishes to you.
You are happy, I can feel it.
You are in the happiness you been looking for, I knew it.

I thought I can cut the hairstyle I want but in the end I give up on it.
No idea why, just don't feel so.
Back to the old style, and I planned to keep it long this time.

Nothing much I can write huh.
Life without you might but not interesting as before.
Maybe that's suit my title "Meaningless Life Style"..

2009-04-04T18:57:00.000+08:00

The song I posted just now is one of the song you like.
The lyric is nice and quite similar to me..or maybe not.
I do every little thing is because of you..
I can travel long way to just see you...
Those small thing is something important to me...

Yesterday, I celebrate birthday with you.
A lot of things happened but I don't wanted to mention it here due to I wanted to see your feeling about it.
Maybe after today, everything will change. I had no idea..

Today, I just feel lazy..just lay on the bed and do nothing.
Just keep thinking about Me and You..maybe I shouldn't think so much about it, but it just come to my mind. What I told you yesterday is true and from my heart. But I am really glad that we celebrate it..although I spend a lot time by planning although is not that perfect but when I see your smile, I feel so happy..really happy from the heart.

Thanks..thanks vevvy

2009-04-04T18:53:00.000+08:00

歌曲：最重要的小事

歌手：五月天

我走过动荡日子
追过梦的放肆
穿过多少生死
却假装若无其事
穿过半个城市
只想看你样子
这一刻最重要的事
是属於你最小的事

世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹

什黱是真实

为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑

买一杯果汁

就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙

活过一辈子

也要分分秒秒年年日日

全心守护你
最小的事

我就算壮烈前世
征服滚滚乱世
万人为我写诗
而幸福却是此时
静静帮你提著
哈罗凯蒂袋子
这一刻最重要的事
是属於你最小的事

世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹

什黱是真实

为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑

买一杯果汁

就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙

活过一辈子

也要分分秒秒年年日日

全心守护你

最小的事
最重要的事

你笑得像个孩子
每个平凡小事
变成永恒故事

2009-04-03T08:45:00.000+08:00

3 April 2009 - The end of chapter one?

Today is the day that I will fulfill my promise to you,
Hope everything goes well and you will be happy,
Yesterday I saw you can just smile whenever he just said he wanna come over,
I can know how much you wanted the one who sitting beside you is him but not me,
That's why I quite glad he made it,
first time I saw him in person and sitting in front of me,
before I go, as my plan I go shake his hand and get to know him,
He like blur? or just don't feel like I will do so..I don't know but anyway I can't bother so much.
Don't know why today will wake up that early, excited? happy? No idea.
Just hope everything will go as plan, maybe will be tiring but see her smile will do.
Will update everything tomorrow about tonight,
Tomorrow..something will happen? Maybe that's the end of my chapter one?
No people can predict, not even me.

2009-03-29T21:15:00.000+08:00

Back forwarding

People just like looking back to the pass, I am not the exception. Although I know we must move forward and stop looking back, but today I looking back to the pass between me and you. How we come until here, what we had been thru and what we did, at first you are using live blog then I helped you register blogspot and it was two years ago. Fast? No idea but a lot of things happened. Happy and Sad, Loving and heart breaking. You still remember those scene when we still together? It seem like flashback to me.

Time to back reality life and get my shit done

Titleless

2009-03-28T11:36:00.000+08:00

Oh well, someone is guessing the number meaning. But I can say, good luck to you then.
Actually I wonder, do you still remember what you wish for your birthday?
I know and remember what I wish but it won't happen anymore

2009-03-27T23:43:00.000+08:00

有時候　
我會讓墨水代替眼淚
讓信紙代替臉左手讓寂寞牽
讓眼淚在信紙一行行的流

因為我知道自己從來都不曾忘記過

48435

2009-03-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

Another uncountable second that I upload my last post. So what happen lately?
Nothing serious, Nothing special, and Nothing happy. Any changes on me?
Nothing I guess..but I hope got changes on next week maybe?
Next week Tuesday got presentation and MQA interview.
On Friday will celebrate early birthday with jesZ...hope she will be happy.
Maybe that's the last thing I do for you..
Nothing much I wanted to say, anyone can guess the meaning of the title?

Tips : Related to promise.
Leave tag or MSN me for the answer and will get your reward!!

Forget no title in this blog the title is "48435"

Cares

2009-03-22T15:56:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I went to clubbing with my friend and mun tat of course. We drank a lot, not even one hour, we finish one bottle of Barcadi. Normally we need a lot of people and until 3am only can finish 2 bottle but yesterday, we leave at 2am and we already finish 2 bottle and 3/4 bottle of gin.

Great night? I don't know.
Happy? I don't know.
So I back to the real me? I don't know.

Mun tat and I vomit a lot. Damn suffering..headache and those, do we even happy? I am not sure.
Everyone had their own problem, is always I look good for you and you look good for me.

Some how, I feel like a lot of thing change in this one year. Good and bad, meet back a lot of friend lately, I talk to them and get to know their news lately, they are moving on but seem like I am the only one who still stuck in the beginning. My friend said we had to say bye bye to our teenager life, is time to face to truth of life. Depending on our parents is not our solution forever. When I see this, I am silent..I am thinking. We can't be so selfish anymore, keep want them to worry about us.

Yesterday, I cried in car. No one knows, just sobbing. Cause remind me a lot of things, some kind of flashback. The year we being together is seem so short yet so long. One of my friend said I look tough in the surface but not all the way through. She is right, we almost is the same kind of people. I understand her's and she understand mine.

My heart is bleeding and no one would care.
When I stress and no one to share.
I had screw up my life not just once, but many times.
Maybe this is the last time I would do anything to save it.

Tonight, I will plan everything for that night. I don't know whether will you like it but that's the only thing I can do for you now. Life for me now is tough, it will never tougher than seeing the one I love love someone else. You really changed a lot, really a lot, not that jesZ full with confident and style. You told me that you will never give up heels for anyone else, today you gave it up because of him. From that night, you said you thinking of giving it up because of him. I already know that I had lost you because that's one of important thing in your life. I said you are not cindrella anymore, you said you already don't have the glass heels. Even the glass heels in front of you, will you wear it and leave? I don't think so. The path you choosen, I can't comment much about it. Last time, everything you did it because of feel. Now I think mostly because of him. You said you looking forward for that night, I hope it can give you and me some good memory. It might not that perfect as you think, but I will give everything of me that night.

Simple enough

2009-03-21T18:01:00.000+08:00

Today, I asked you a simple question but you don't even know how to answer me.

I am such a failure to be your boyfriend.

Seriously, what did I gave you?

Turning Point?

2009-03-20T23:57:00.000+08:00

Today, nothing special happened actually. Just another normal day, at first I thought of donate my blood, don't know why in the end I didn't do it. I also blur..wind blowing outside..seem like gonna be heavy rain later. Nice night to sleep..I seem like the dude in the picture...fishing for love? Tear my heart off and throw it in the sea..let it flow. Today, you asked me do he love you, seriously I don't know how to answer you but he cares about you..I think with the document you sent me. He love you too..he seem like did a lot small thing..minor thing to make you happy. That's should be a good news to you, you need fresh and new thing happen in your life. You changed, I can sense it. Because of him, a lot thing changed, true love? I don't know, is that what you want? Can you answer me? Every night, he phone you..everyday he text you. Me? Only can text you last time. Nothing much to say either, just simple-boring-message. At least, he had much thing to talk with you. You won't feel bored anyway. Today, I stab myself hardly. I am hurt, pain and scream. But what can I do beside that? Every night, I dream you and I wake up. You no longer beside me, that's the fact I had to accept. Last time, you like the thing I cook, although is nothing and just instant noodle and mushroom soup. Now, I know how to cook some dishes but no one gonna eat it beside me. Now you cry because of him, means you really care a lot and he mean a lot to you. Space for me? No more and need.

Suddenly, my mind is blank. Nothing to write..can't really sleep yet. Thinking of you..last time, in this time, you already on bed sleeping like a pig. Now, you mostly on the phone with him. Chatting happily and laughing. Anyways..just hope you two get along very well. Nothing I wanted to do anymore..

Change?

2009-03-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, my mum visit me and will be overnight for few nights. She clean up my room and house, really thanks alot mum :D

Today, we went to "Ho ching yun" which mum want to settle something there. After that, we went to Timesquare, at first we planned to take dinner in Jogoya but we didn't make it because we are not hungry at that time so we went to Bar B Q plaza for dinner. First time, we order family set and eat, really alot but worth it compare to supreme due to only Rm10 different.

After that, we reach home and I read baby de blog. She really likes him alot..there's nothing can be change or be done. At first, I was depressed cause I still love her. But in the other hand, I was reliefed because I got my plan. She asked whether I be back the cheerful person, I don't know maybe I will be miserable as well. I don't know how long it might took, but is my choice. I don't know how I will change to, bad or good. Nobody can predict, even me.
Today, we talk alot thru msn. I get to know alot of things, Him, Me and Us. Hope? No more, and not anymore. We talked about your present, it seem like something I can't give at all. Now I doubt myself, do I still need to go on with my plan? I don't know, I hope you can give me the answer. Tuesday morning 3am, is our 3rd week breaking. There's not yet 1 month, everything changed. Change to good one I think, do you think I made a correct decision for you?

Let's our pass become our memory and seal it.

What am i?

2009-03-11T23:42:00.000+08:00

Lately, been open my blogger since I wanted to update my blog but it seem like I can't squeeze any word into it. This post took me 3 hours to start writing it, maybe you will ask why. Unfortunately that, I don't know. Really a lot of thing in my mind...I don't know how to express it. This is the 2nd week, did we changed? Or only me or only you? I don't know...I actually not that good huh. I am a careless person..can't even notice small matter around you. Maybe I am really that dumb in relationship, sometime it seem like...without me, will be no harm to you. Shall I leave? If you ask me whether I still miss you, yes I do. But I won't say anything in front of you. Maybe I just so gutless but do you still need that? I had no idea..if you think I leave is a good choice, please tell me. I will do so. At least no people will bugging around you.

3 Days

2009-03-10T00:22:00.000+08:00

I been back to my home since last Saturday, why? Just don't feel like staying here.

This three day, I been go thru a lot of thing. Being moody and miserable, a lot of thing go in my mind. Same question is keep going on my mind...

Now..it seem like all my plan had been broke again. Slowly you will leave..and there's nothing i can do anymore.

Do you?

2009-03-05T22:51:00.000+08:00

"No ring how to become your lao poh oh?"

This question suddenly pop up in my mind when I driving...I smile..I cry...

Do you remember this question?
Do you remember the answer?

Unfortunately I can't fulfill it anymore..

But if can...can I beside you again?

We start, We happy, We sad, We End

2009-03-04T16:08:00.000+08:00

From last post, almost one month ago. Yesterday night, we break up due to our problem. She is more enjoying her single life. She is not happy with me, I can't even make her smile. But other guy can...she is even more happy with them. What I am to her? I don't know. She is even better without me, all the way she just need me. You asked me, did I put or try hard to make you love me more...I am trying to accompany you more..I am trying to make you happy..I am trying to make you feel happiness but..what I did is nothing. The watch we brought together...the necklace we brought together..Today, i saw you wearing your cross necklace...and you are not that down with me anymore. Is like get away from a heavy burden.

That night, you help me put on blanket..I was so happy and feel warm. Happiness is just so short...yesterday you cried..and told me everything. I let you go...I know I only can keep your body but not your heart. The thing i prepared for your birthday is not needed anymore...cause you don't need me beside you anymore. I am not beside of you anymore..take care yourself and enjoy your life. I don't want to see you sitting beside me inside car but looking outside. I know I am not the one for you, the thing you need I can't give.

Baby..still remember when in car, you will hug my hand and call me dear dear? I miss it..I miss your voice..I miss you..I think I don't have the chance to hear it anymore..only can just think back...all in my memory.

The place where we start is the place where we end...last year I fetch you from hostel...This year We break at hostel. Do you know today was my worst day ever? I feel so suffocated inside class..I wanted to run away from there...but you don't know..when i saw you, you like nothing happened. Remember the first message you sent today? You still call me dear...I was happy..I hope that you will still call me that..but it seem like impossible for now. Eight years...and now we back to square one.

Chinese new year and that's gone

2009-02-07T23:58:00.000+08:00

From my last post, it had been pass 39 days. What I had done in this period and what happened, Chinese new year had pass. Nothing special for this year, due to my great grandmother passed away on January this year. So, can't celebrate and get ang pow from relatives. But this year at least got vevvy accompany me and my parents go genting for short holiday. About that [picture is taken while we playing Sungai Rejang in genting theme park. We having a lot of fun in theme park, at first vevvy thought of don't want go out because of rainning but seeing her face look disappointed then I keep insist go play with her and even the wheather become good after we brought the ticket.

At night, we play at in door theme park. This is our record in the same game but different machine. Both also in 1st place which is DMJ (Domo, Max, Jesz). This game is all about hitting the nine button. The first day, we get damn high score like this but unfortunatly the second day we thought of play it again but we failed to break our own record. On the first day too, we play until one of the machine break down by the button no more react. The day we back from genting, I fetch vevvy back to her home which is in Raub, Pahang. Is a small town and quite easy to go from KL and i brought vevvy a domo-kun doll which is in full body. And we called it as Domo baby. Cause it's small and cute.

There's another big stuff happened, but is not to me but is to my mum. She perform in front of Perak Sultan in Ipoh field, that's the stage. Mum and her's band member go do rehearsal the day before the perform.

Look where I found on the stage, "Smoke Machine 3000" which produce 'fog' on the stage.

And those are the speaker, which I think is not enough for that field, you will know what I say after you saw the picture below.

This is the view from the stage and the sultan sit the behind of the field. Is like one edge to another, which i think is not enough for using those speaker with alot viewer.

I took this picture when my mum doing the rehearsal which the white shirt with black legging is my mum. When I stood on the stage, i was like wow, how many person can stand on this stage in the middle of Ipoh field. Which micheal wong also gonna perform there. But on the day which the event on, I didn't attend due to I don't like a lot people pack in one place.

Anyways, a lot of things happen in between this 39days. Happy and sad, but life is like that up and down. Just need to carry on, tonight is my vevvy first day working. Hope she is doing fine and she like the job. Worry about her and miss her alot.

2008-12-30T23:58:00.000+08:00

Happy new year everyone!!

Although is one day earlier, at least I wish everyone. Tomorrow I will be going back to Ipoh to countdown with my veyvy. So happy that we can go back together and first time celebrate new year eve. Although I think nothing special will happen but at least can celebrate with veyvy and this year gonna be different cause gonna go Batu Gajah there countdown which I don't even know where is that. HA HA

Hope i just have a good new year anyway!

p/s just finish assignment YAY

Time

2008-12-28T13:31:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time that i didn't update my blog since my birthday post. Few day ago, I just celebrate Christmas and new year is around the corner. What I did for this pass few week..Assignment. Programming assignment is getting tougher and a lot problem come out. Is like shit, I wonder can i get a good grade for this semester. By the way, my exam fall on 14 Jan 2009 which is like one month before valentine day. Hope my valentine day won't screw up like Christmas due to didn't book seat for dinner. And that, we almost waited for one hour. For this coming year, I change my blog skin and my baby blog skin too. So that won't look so dull, from yesterday on, I am alone at home due to mun tat went to malacca and lex having nice and long holiday, my baby went home too due to monday is holiday. Guess what i am doing for this two day, i just keep playing Luna Online --> http://luna.runup.com.my/en/ . Check it for details, it currently is open beta.
And i just keep sitting here doing nothing. For this new year eve, i plan to go back Ipoh and having steamboat and BBQ at my home lol...but i didn't inform anyone but only 2 couple going which is mun tat,yc and me, baby. LOL...i wonder it still on or not. Normally last two christmas i will take a lot christmas tree picture for each shopping mall but this christmas i didn't do so thanks to the assignment. It just so damn fuck up. But nevermind, i still got my baby celebrate this special day.

This is my Christmas present from baby, is a white polo T. Which i can wear it in new year haha. This year gonna change my style abit to Polo T. Due to i brought one Polo T earlier.

This is our dinner in Chili, this is Chili's Triple Play. We love the buffalo wing alot.

Due to my baby doesn't fancy about japanese food, I also didn't went for japanese restaurant as often as last time. But the week before christmas, we went to 1U and we went for a japanese restaurant which i wanted to bring baby go long time ago.

There's our drinks. Left side is Apple Juice and the Left side is Chocolate Almond.

This is my meal, Curry rice with SOTONG and prawn.

This is pasta, my baby don't eat pasta with tomato paste or white sauce. She just simply don't like the taste, but this japanese style pasta, she likes it alot. She like the egg so much.

After meal, we just shopping for clothes and shoes. Baby wanted a silver bling bling shoes so much but unable to find it until last thursday she found it in Timesquare but need to give up due to it is difficult to take off and wear back when new year she going to visit alot friends. End up buy a white high heels look cute. After that, we went to chocolate and have some dessert.

This is my dessert. Chocolate cake. And my baby de is soffule which i post before. She just simply like it so much.

For year 2009, i just hope everything will going well and plan will go as i wish.

Althought is early, i wish everyone happy new year !!

So?

2008-11-19T19:27:00.000+08:00

Don't know for what reason, i just cant upload the picture from my computer. Just keep trying now, how can show you all the present that baby made for me...

I really like that present..always look at it before sleep.
Half year anniversary le...but seem like fall on a wrong day ba. Thursday..and need do mid term on friday. So mostly i think will celebrate on friday night ba...but still thinking where to eat, any buffet dinner to introduce?

Just now taking bath suddenly thought of Need and Want.
Human got unlimited want but only limited need.
Do you know what you want and what you need?
Some people would think need and want is the same, but unfortunatly is not the same, what we need don't mean what we want and what we want doesn't mean what we need...

At last i can upload the picture of my present, my first handmade present from my baby.
Love it so much...thanks baby...

Birthday

2008-11-10T22:04:00.000+08:00

That's my present for birthday, the only present btw. It look so damn nice in the dark, love it so much. Thanks baby. She give me surprise during i go to take my shower. But too bad, i was sick that day, but still we go dating and watch Quantum of solace, its sucks to me anyway. This is the birthday that I hate and love the most cause got baby accompany me but i was sick. Have to say sorry to baby cause didn't really accompany her during this few day.

Baby, thanks a lot for accompany me during my birthday oh. love you so much.

What the...

2008-11-05T23:10:00.000+08:00

Oh ya, what the hell is happening to me?

I feel hot, flu, bone pain, tired and a bit dizzy. Yes!! you are right. I am fucking fever right now.
Thanks the weather lately that rain and sunny together. Fuck you, yea, Fuck you. I won't let you destroy my plan.

Back to the blog, Tomorrow is someday for me. Hope everything go well and happy. Seriously, I hope my fever will gone tomorrow morning. So that I can enjoy my plan with baby. Is 11.41pm now, I wonder I wonder who will remember....

When...

2008-11-01T22:41:00.000+08:00

When can we wear this pair of necklace? I don't know but I hope soon, is like linking our heart together...

Anyways...assignment due date is coming soon, haven't finish much thing yet. Gonna rush it from tomorrow on, hope can finish it on time. Need to draw some more...going to die. Due date on my big day, fucks. Just hate it and programming assignment on the week after. I just hope this semester everything go right. I just hope the BM exemption success so that I got only 4 subject for this semester which I got one more day holiday on Monday.

Today, not really a good day for me, morning went to my friend house to do assignment, but unfortunately one of my group mate heavy sick and went to hospital to do check up. Hope you recover soon Mr. Wilson. Then have to think the idea how to do flash for Christmas song and then found a song name "The Christmas Song" sounds lame to me (the title). But is a nice song that can let me have a picture that what we need to do for the assignment. Then go find my mum in hang tuah there. Find her lunch and chit chat but too hot and tired, then I left early. Then come back home thought wait baby to maple but too lag for her to install so we just chit chat on msn. But something happened make my mood fall to the deep. So had to cancel the dinner with Mun tat ( SORRY DUDE ). Hope he won't angry me ba, hope my next week dinner will on as usual.

Days....

2008-10-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

Long time for my blog without any picture at all is because I am lazy to upload it to my computer. So until now when I got nothing to do only upload from my phone. This is the cake that I order for my baby when we go 1U have our teatime. Is a very nice souffles from chocolate. I still remember how baby smile when eating this, I just love to see her smile so much...I just hope she can be happy.

This is Ms. Coco in mug. It is made from Belgian dark chocolate. It taste so nice and warm, so far, this is tasty hot chocolate I ever drank. My baby like it so much too.. like when she drinking and the face she make is so cute. I would highly suggest for chocolate lover to visit this shop which is available in Pavilion and 1U. The price is ok I think which I had not seen any shop selling chocolate food in complex or normal shop. Any one know got other places, please let me know thanks. =)
Last semester break when I back to home, I changed my rims, the picture above is the rims that I like most which it attract me a lot, so wish it will be on my car, but unfortunately that when it put on my car, it just look like normal black rims cause my car also is in black colour.

So in the end I choose this rims, it can consider a lightweight rims among for other 15" inch rims that I try on. Mun tat said that is a fake SSW rims but for us ori or fake it doesn't matter after all cause a lot of pot hole in malaysia road. It look kinda nice and suit my car after all. That can be said is my latest modify for my car..haha.

Well, thats Mun tat accompany me go change rims, thanks for his accompany so that won't be so boring haha. That is GAB suspension, all look like ikan masin for me. Cause they just simply hang there and display. Just that is red ikan masin.

So I think thats all for today, kinda lazy to update also. But will try to update often so that my viewer ( don't know still got anot ) to read my crappy blog anyways. Thanks a lot to view my nothing-good blog :D

Is been quite awhile

2008-10-21T21:45:00.000+08:00

Is been awhile from my last update, backed to K.L since last two or three week ago. Lazy to update, a lot of thing happened, like I brought a new desktop, I got my first semester result and so-on. Well, the main point is my new desktop, Totally new except my speaker. I got myself a 19" LG LCD, nvidia 9800GTX+, 1TB of hard disk, 4 gig performance RAM, kinda cool casing and some others. It look kinda cool when first use this new desktop, I can say lagless of playing game even with high graphic setting, feel kinda cool with this 19" LCD.

I now only notice that my college LAB for our pratical using Core2 Quad with 2gig ram and also 19" inch Samsung LCD, never judge a book by it's cover. The building althought look so damn old but i think the assets inside worth a lot. HAHA....btw this semester I only got 4 subject if my Malay subject can be exempted (Pray so damn hard for this) Then I got one more weekend holiday on monday, and I got my first semester result. Is like so fucking unbelievable that I got A in programming subject LOL. and only fail one subject that's Math. I just so damn hate math now, I just hope i can pass it this semester. Anyone can teach me? Pretty puwweeezzz.

Back to my life, I got banged twice since I come back to KL, first at front then second at the back. I was like What the fuck happen to those driver? Front got my Rm220 to fix it without paint back. But still look like new one, the workmanship is kinda good there. Won't be so expensive althought there don't have those fancy thing to sell. Oh well...forget about those shit. I just hate it when I think back.

Back in town

2008-09-21T21:39:00.000+08:00

Wow, now only I knew that I can't remember my password at all. Need to reset password to post beside my own computer.

This is the second day I back to home, seriously nothing I can do here. My life here is just so dull beside eat and sleep, I don't know what I can do here.

Yesterday was my lovely cute cute sweet sweet baby and my 4th month anniversary but unfortunately that we are currently not together and celebrate it. But I believe that our heart is together.

Baby, I miss you
Baby, I love you
How I wish that we are together now.
Even my body is here, but my soul is at your place.
There is not even one second that I didn't miss you.

Baby..I miss how you call me..
Baby..I miss how you hold my hand..
Baby..I miss the way I hug you..
Baby..I just simply miss you so much..

20 mins

2008-09-20T11:41:00.000+08:00

What can we do in 20minutes? Nothing for me..

20minutes more I will go back Ipoh. What I hope is just can be with you.

Unfortunately you are not here with me...

If I leave, will you cry?

Holiday?

2008-09-20T08:57:00.000+08:00

Guess what? This holiday is will not be as what I think.

What happen? My mum told me that my rig might gonna delay til end of next month. How great is that huh? 2nd part of my holiday is ruin too. Wow, all things come together, great.

Nothing much I want to say about it, things just won't go as I plan. What I going to do tonight? Nothing. What I gonna do tomorrow? Nothing. Anyhow I just feel like staying here, as least I got my computer can accompany me.

Time Machine

2008-09-19T21:08:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you just feel like back to the time that things that you done to be undone.

Sometimes you just feel like back to the time that everything was normal.

Time...this is what I lack of and this is where the problem from...as least that's what I thought.
How good if I can go back to the time that I didn't know the truth...

Another lonely night, what are you doing? who are you thinking?

What I did is really wrong? Should I go? Should I leave?

Nothing-Good blog

2008-09-19T13:58:00.000+08:00

Just finished my exam, just did my last paper this morning. It suck so badly which I can't understand 40% of the paper. The subject is " MATH " yay. Btw, my holiday is here but I don't know what to do. Just thought of going for a movie and nice dinner today, but had to cancel it. I am going back by tomorrow and gonna deal with no-internet day.

Talk about my holiday, this time I gonna change my Rims for my car, change to smaller one which is 14" inch. But no idea what design should I take and FINALLY, yes FINALLY, my dad agree let me change my desktop, I am so gonna get a new desktop during the holiday and change the monitor and speaker too. When think about it, I am so looking forward and excited. At last I can get a new one and get rid of this old desktop. Credits for him too, cause work 24/7 for 2years and 3 months after I moved to KL. Second part of my holiday, I just hope the plan can go on. Just pray hard and hope everything is fine.

Now my baby having exam, is her last paper. Hope she can pass with flying colourrrrssss.

Now I am just alone at home waiting and waiting. Mun tat went back to Ipoh and lex busying with his college and his buddiessss. I am like so left out haha, I going back tomorrow afternoon due to my cousin is just so lazy to wake up early. Don't know what to do tonight, anyone out there can give me suggestion? I doubt still got people view my blog, any anonymous? Btw, mun tat said before that my blog is FOR SOMEONE ONLY, yes indeed and this is not universal blog. LALALALALAA "TAK SUKA U KELUAR" quote from some politician which i dont know his name.

Oh well, got to go now. BYEBYES

What a day

2008-08-23T10:36:00.000+08:00

Is been a very long time since i update my blog, i barely can remember what happen within these few week. Only can remember some important things. I shall start with my college stuff. The picture above is "Tom", he is big among them. And the most importantly he know when to pose. You can see that, he is looking at me when i took photo of him. Anyway, Exam is around the corner, next week is my last week for my semester, still got one presentation to go. This time, i hope i would pass all my subject and get a good cgpa for this time. My class got a lot problem come out, I started worry about semester two assignment group since a lot people complain about others. I think if can, I will do it all myself.

I think who stay at wangsa maju will know where i took this photo. I miss this view and long time didn't see it. This picture is taken by me when i wanted to go PC Fair which is like 2 of august. I going there alone, but is not that pack as i go last year. Maybe a lot people just don't like crowded places.I went there to get cooling pad for my dad. Nothing much to do there, buy then i leave there. Not much changes there still the same old shop and some old building.

Last week, I went back to Ipoh with my baby which is my hometown. That 2day 2 night really feel so short for me. I just bring baby go eat all the tasty food in my hometown. She like it a lot, i am so glad she is happy there. When I come back to kl, i feel so strange and not willing to come back and wanted to stay in Ipoh for longer time. Maybe I just don't like the lifestyle in KL, too rush and always do the same thing over and over again. I just wish to have a long break after my exam. Is like a lot thing waiting me to do now, like service my car, when semester break, I need to go back and change my rims and tires. Maybe need to change my suspension also, but I had no idea whether my parents will change for me or not.

Again, my desktop is getting slower and slower. Even i startup my firefox, i need to wait like 30seconds to wait it pop up? I started feddup with it, I really hope my dad make his decision faster to buy me a good laptop or a desktop.
I wonder whether someone remember this picture...

Right or Wrong

2008-08-02T23:17:00.000+08:00

Baby,
I know i am not perfect for you,
If i got power,
I will make you happy,
I will protect you,
I just hope you can forgive me.

Baby,
Would you smile for me?
Would you happy because of me?

I don't know what to do to make you happy,
I don't know what to do to make you smile again,
I don't know what to do to make you forgive me.

Baby,
I just want to tell you that you was a part of my life.
and I love you..

Since when

2008-07-26T10:42:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, went to a club called S.I.N. Nothing much i want to talk about it, this is the only that I visited made me want to sleep and feel annoying with the music. Nothing but crap inside, the liquor sucks and the mixer is CRANBERRY JUICE for no reason they using that and they mix for us. I was stunned when watching that guy mixing our drinks. it taste like herb tea and I feel like vomiting when I start drink second cup of it. The club is small I can finish walking is just one small round. The sound system there sucks, no bass at all. I think I'll stop critic the club anymore.

Yesterday, I wasn't in the mood, club might be a good place to express yourself. I saw a lot different kind of people, dancing, smoking and drinking. While my tears drop there, no one able to see that because is just too dark to notice that.

How I wish I can reach the place where he stand now,
I don't know when i will reach there or can I reach there.
I am worry that you would leave me,
but I don't know how to make you happy.
You cry because of him,
you smile because of him,
maybe all I ask is just to share your sadness,
maybe all I ask is just a smile from you with being with me.

I hope I can be your teddy bear,
I hope I can be your superman,
I hope I can be the reason that you smile,
I hope I can be the one you miss,
I hope I can be the one that you love...

Disappointment

2008-07-10T21:25:00.000+08:00

I don't know what is waiting me in the end.

I can't predict the future.

But if i ask you to stay, would you?

Respect

2008-06-28T17:54:00.000+08:00

Another week had pass, nothing much happen i think. Next week is one of my assignment deadline. Didn't do much though, just get information from my baby since she do another tribe.
This two day just happened some fucked up shit. Some people just too thick face or what? or just don't know how to respect other people? What is in his brain? Shit? Waving hand then expect people notice him? With just few step distance? You think calling people name is harder than waving hand in front of him? I am some fucking close friend with you? Stop acting retard in front of me and stop teasing my patient. Even some course mate i just met also won't act like you. I just never seen those person with so thick face and being so retarded. And yes, i hope u see this and stop acting so.

Thanks to those people made my day bad, yesterday night, mun tat and i went to yum cha with lex. Then mun tat was interested in adopt a cat as pet, i wonder the plan will success or not. But didn't put much hope on it tho. Today, i woke up on 1pm yay! Is been a long time didn't sleep for so long. But still today i just at home alone due to to mr lex still at home and mr mun tat went out for dating and so for tonight. What i am going to do tonight? Finish up my assignment stuff and show to the lecturer and need to pass up on this coming Wednesday.

I wanted a laptop now due to my desktop is dying. I suggested a mac book pro to my dad. But he seem like not willing to get it cause the price. He say laptop life only last for 2 years. But i told him with mac book i can use it for 3-4 years cause the processor and graphic card and other chips is enough for me. For other 3-4k laptop i really think only can last for 2 years for me, due to the spec given is not enough for me. I really hope i can get one of those then i can do my presentation with laptop and not keep borrow mun tat laptop. Even i want to customize a good desktop will cost me 5-6k and i still can't do my presentation and i am dead bored in Ipoh. Laptop, i can install some game then play in Ipoh even without any internet. I just don't know what my dad thinking, i just want something that can last long and not wasting money. Even my desktop is 5-6years old. Now it occur error in window and can restart by itself sometimes.

I miss my baby a lot..and got something i want to tell her.
Baby, no matter what happen. I just want to let you know that i am here for you as i promise.
Anything also can talk with me, don't just keep in your heart. Maybe i am not all in your world, but i hope i can be the reason for you to be happy. If you asked me what i want to see now, i wanted to see you smile. Your smile make me happy from the bottom of my heart

Hulk

2008-06-18T23:46:00.000+08:00

Just now went to midvalley and watch the hulk with my baby. How to say about this movie? Is about the hulk with it's twin? then iron man wanna team with the hulk? But still not bad, i kinda like this movie. But i was looking forward for Hancock, it look funny and kinda nice story line they have. So gonna watch with baby. So many movie coming up on July, need to watch it all.

For someone who own a car and they renew their license in this few month shall go rebate the money, but only for those 2000cc car and below. I am gonna to get the money so badly, it have rm625. Gonna get something with it =x

Anyway, my life in college not bad lately. Knew some new friend although all in younger than me. About my study, what i can say? I think is going better , i do mean a lot better than last time. At least i know how to do all those tutorial question and answer question in class. Ya, i think i shall be more hardworking due to i already wasted two year for nothing. I don't know how well i can do, but i will try my best cause i already promise someone to pass it and graduate. So ya, i must do it.

Video

2008-06-14T17:17:00.000+08:00

Wow....

2008-06-13T21:18:00.000+08:00

How long it been? 10years? 10 months? or half year? I already forget about this blog so let it close down kthxbai!

Just joking, i gonna update this time, so for those no interest about my life can leave now.
This is my blog so i like to crap alot before i start ha ha ha.

So where should i start first? Let me think...

Maybe i should start with some thing that happened long time ago.

I went to Freedom rave party ( for those who don't know just go google it ), this is the first time i went to those so-called rave party. I just been to Jay Chow concert once, and now this. What should i say about this rave party, i can say not much chicks around there, but alot bikini girls around. And yea, beer. I like the enviroment there, not bad actually just tired after the whole thing because i stand for 7 hour for that shit and when i leave it haven't end yet.

Those are the stage picture. A lot people there when we reach. The parking cost me a fortune. Rm20 per parking and need to walk for some distance. But never mind, cause in this rave party got DJ Ferry Corsten and DJ Tiesto. I pretty like DJ Ferry Corsten in that party cause he really entertain the listener and not just keep play there. Is a nice experience there, great music.

This is the parrot that don't know how to fly and talk. He/she look funny everytime i tease it. And i think he/she scared of me because i always bully him/her. I keep use him/her cause i don't know it is a male or female nor the owner. It's been a good experience work in Ipoh although is boring and tired. At least i know earn money is not easy.

Back to the Party stuff, we brought two day ticket to there, but we went for only one day due to tiredness and boringness. So we went to visit malacca due to i didn't really been in malacca before. We visit A'famosa the gate thing and the Boat which is rebuild i think. Been a good time there, seen a lot of thing. And the unforgettable thing is the Satay Culup, is not normal satay is just a other version of "lok lok" ( for those don't know what is lok lok, go sungei wang and you will saw fatty lok lok car around there ), we need dip the ingredient to the satay sauce to make it cooked and eat. And all of them taste the same to me due to the "soup" is satay sauce. Is time to post some picture that the place i visit.

Woot, BB 7752. Is a old style tank i assume or some-kind-of-army-transport.

Haha, the gate of malacca. Just joking is just a old fort don't know build by who. ( i just forget who build it) See who is in the picture? I won't reveal who is there haha.

That's the couple who want me take picture, try and guess who are them.

Beca, a bicycle-like transport. It only can sit two passanger without the driver. When i first saw this, i was thinking can that person able to give me a ride due to my weight.

This is the picture from the gate, it look like barter system to me but i think is not ( lol ). Just two person stand there. Oh well, thats the photo i took from malacca due to my battery is out then. But i able to take kinda a lot video then, party and malacca trip. I will post it later but not in this post.

Woot, Boh tea farm. Look nice huh? Is windy there and nice view, kinda like it.

Ta-Da, guess what is this Love made of. Anyone can guess i will not reward him/her haha.

This is my dinner just now, Chicken wing, cabbage and don't-know-what vegetable.
I copied this idea from someone haha. Ok, this is all for this time, will upload some video after this and sorry for those friends that read my blog. =P

Smile

2008-05-21T20:10:00.000+08:00

How i can make you smile?

Why you had so less stuff to talk with me?

What you want me to do?

I just want you communicate more with me

Attention

2008-05-20T17:05:00.000+08:00

Maybe all i need just your attention.

Even you sitting beside me, i can't do anything else but just look at you.

Reply

2008-04-14T14:39:00.000+08:00

I don't know why you felt that way,
but i want to tell you that i didn't forget my promise.
I think is those thing that i wrote on this blog bother you,
or after the call that you received made your trust lost.
I really hope you can tell me all the thing you thinking,
i really hope we can fix the problem and not keeping in your heart.

PC Fair again

2008-04-14T12:11:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to PC Fair again, is just all same old shit again. Crowded with people, went there just to help friend choose laptop, she get a dell with Rm2698 with kinda nice spec i think. Then one of my friend get 19 inch Samsung LCD screen with RM595.

Is been long time i take bus and LRT, yesterday went to KLCC by LRT and it reminds me doing stupid stuff on LRT. Walk alot too, make my legs pain like fuck. Then went to Timesquare saw vacancy for GSC, so just now apply for part time, hopefully can get the job. So that can get money, if not i serious will die in hunger.

Heart

2008-04-07T23:24:00.000+08:00

I don't know what happen to me, i argue with you.
Maybe i just shouldn't ask you that question.
Maybe i just give too much reaction.
Maybe i just should keep all thing to myself.
I don't know why you want to tell me that.
Do i look like only care about that thing?
I don't know...maybe i am just a such person for you.

Still remember the heart you let me keep?
Still remember the promise that i made?
Still remember the time we together?
I remember...

Requested

2008-04-06T00:49:00.000+08:00

This is the picture we took after some photoshooting.
From your left to right: Samantha, Albert, Chun lee and Cheryl.

Cheryl try to being cool by wearing sun glasses (hope won't kena by her)
This picture look funny to me for no reason.

and this is what mr. albert doing when we photo shooting. lol ( sorry for posting this )

Emptyness

2008-04-05T23:39:00.000+08:00

Today, when i woke up, i got empty feeling in my heart. Maybe is been too busy for this two day and suddenly so free for today. It feel suck, i hope i can be busy like this for long time. So that i won't feel so. Oh well, now i only remember i long time didn't update my life stuff in this crappy blog. A ton of thing happen to me, life changed. Oh well, over spend money never change.

Thats my parents, taken when visit genting. For god sake, i forget how long didn't go holiday with them.

Oh yea, this is my buddy, Mr. Mun tat. look so damn cool with his curly hair. And i look damn red in this damn picture.

Let me introduce, the upper girl is pey and the lower girl is chun lee. Chun lee birthday that day, so we go celebrate with her haha.

For more detail please wait until i update my blog next time. LOLX

Gap

2008-03-26T01:39:00.000+08:00

It seems like we got gap in between us now.

It seems like you already put a gap between me and him too.

Because of something, the gap between us is growing.

I really hope time goes back and you would treat me better than this.

Reward

2008-03-21T00:03:00.000+08:00

It seem like been a long week for me.

A lot of thing happen to me lately, non of them is good news for me.

All the effort i do is just seem disappear from you.

Maybe it seem not a big help or big deal in your life.

All i asking is not some reward or some great return.

All i asking is maybe just a "hi" when you online? Even a simple chat will make me happy.

What you did? Nothing. You don't even bother to greet me even that will spend you not even 1 minute of time.

If you think you are a bird in cage, and i am the cage.

Now, i would say you were free now.

Shadow

2008-03-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

Tonight, you just left me here.

You left me nothing but only memory.

What i saw is only your shadow,

you know what hurt the most?

Is just so close,so close for us.

But you choose to let it go.

What should i say to let you stay?

What should i do to let you stay?

Hey tears, why you were here tonight?

Why you been visiting me so often?

If i ask you to stay, will you?

How

2008-03-13T00:38:00.000+08:00

How only i can make you become mine?

How silly am i?

The answer is there and i just trying to escape.

Chance

2008-03-11T18:00:00.000+08:00

Do you ever have something that you really want?

Why would everyone say everyone have a chance to get something you want?

How if the person not even giving you the chance even you did better?

Is that really hard to forget someone?

Is the wound so deep?

Is just a chance i ask for...

Happy Chinese New Year

2008-02-03T02:28:00.000+08:00

Well, it was like 2.34am now. It was like 4 more days to CNY. It doesn't seem got CNY mood to me now, maybe i am still in kl. Few more hour later will go back ipoh after fetch my dad and do some stuff. Just finish my exam yesterday, it was pretty sucks compare to other paper i did. Oh well, i don't give a shit now. I just hope i got a happy CNY and get the stuff i wanted for so long. Hope i can post more picture after this post, it was been so plain for my blog lately, gonna update it after i come back from my holiday which is will end on march 8 ( i think ) it will be pretty long holiday for me. I gonna miss my computer, my games and my bed here. Just wanna wish everyone happy chinese new year here and remember belanja makan after taking angpow money. har har har.

P/S: Stupidfella, don't so upset about your bday. Maybe someone will celebrate with you on that day haha. Okay, time to sleep. ciaoszs

2008-01-19T14:56:00.000+08:00

Due to exam and yumcha session, i had to stop writing previous post. So now i will just write a new one. Before that, i received a letter from Diner's Club International invite me for apply credit card, and i was like wtf because i am just a student without any income. Oh ya, beat it. Anyway, yesterday was my first exam, everything going great. only few question not really complete but i did try my best for this time.

Now i think back for the first year i came kl. I was like so noob in everything and so fucking nerd ( lulzs ) Hey do you have any thing that make you regret? I think i had one now, i think is a big one. But anyway i won't tell you all what i regret :D ( i think no people will curious about it ) If you ask me, if i can go back and make thing right, what would i do. I think i will leave her without any hesitate so that she won't suffer. Oh well, it already pass but i regret now. HAH, too late for me. I just wonder why when i ask, you just won't answer me. And you just think i can't make things right and don't know how to think. If you tell me, i think i will be more happy ba. I just hate it when i know it after it happen and you wanna hide from me for nothing. I rather you tell me straight or you just hide it perfectly. Anyway, i just hope u be honest to me and not keep hiding stuff from me, and when i found out you only want to tell me. You can't believe me or what? If yes, then fine.

Just skip it, just sad when talk about it. Anyway, chinese new year is around the corner. I had only get one pair of shoes, two cloth and one jeans. I still need to fix my spec and get one more cloth if can. Just hope my aim for this CNY can be reach :D

Childish

2008-01-18T01:06:00.000+08:00

Today is my first exam day, now is 1:08am, later 2pm got one resit paper. Why i am still sitting here? Can't sleep at all, maybe nervous or just other thing.

Do you ever feel yourself childish before? guess what? i feel so childish whenever think back whatever i did. What you did that think you most childish? You may just leave a comment or just leave msg in my Chat tag.

For you, i maybe look not so childish in outlook. For what i did all long, is so childish. I would rather laugh myself to death. Sometimes i wish to time travel back and undid all my mistake which that can't be happen. I really hope you can tell me what i did wrong last time, and not let me continue the mistake. I only can say sorry to you for what i did in the pass. Never thought that make you so suffer in that time. Maybe i am just so stupid to understand your feeling that time or even now. I might be the one who understand you the most and who the one who hurt you most all the time. Maybe after all, i just some mistake for you.

My life lately

2008-01-10T10:40:00.000+08:00

W00t, yesterday after my 1st post, i went outside because lex's car's distributer spoiled.

Nothing much happen lately, just kinda addicted to Facebook's Dota. Well, is not some lan game, just some web game. Yesterday, tried to play WoW with lex account. I only found that, i can't play at all ha ha. because i just dont know how to play ha ha. Alot of skill, alot of keys, and alot of thing need to do. Maybe i will like it if i start from the very beginning. Well, 18th is my first exam date. kinda nervous but i think will be fine if i study enough, is some theory exam thought. Hope my exam going well. After this then CNY is around the corner and my father will be coming back on 3th or 4th. Then is time to change my phone and my comp. Hope my car get tinted too :P

Need to get my clothes for CNY in this few day or i just not free for it. I wish to shop with my baby but i think no chance to do so. Well, i miss you baby

Almost

2008-01-09T16:34:00.000+08:00

My exam is around the corner. About my exam, alot of things happen. Like got 2 test i need to do for qualify to final exam, i passed with some average result to normal people. To me, is some good result because i never been take good result after my secondary school due to my lazyness. This need to thanks to my baby because is she make me realize that i can't fooling around with my study anymore. Because i don't want to leave this place and i don't want to make my parents worry. Thanks for your support baby. Lately study kinda alot for my exam and my test which is already end yesterday.

Kinda long never update since i come back from ipoh. I work during Christmas for 3 days. I was sick badly for 2days. Stomachache and sore thoart, having some nice experience about working. Although didn't celebrate Christmas at least got friend there can pass with me. At least i learn that money is not really easy to earn. Well, now i have some plan for this year. Like i wanna change new phone, get new computer and buy something for my car, most importantly i wanna go 2nd year.

Understanding

2007-12-14T14:16:00.000+08:00

Long time never update my blog, no more visitor visit my blog so often or no more visit.
First of all, sorry for long time didn't update.

Alot of thing happen lately, Sad, happy, and miserable.

Tomorrow, got squash competition in my college. Well, i don't know i will in that competition or not, it depend the coach want to choose me or not. Hopefully not. Because i just suck in squash.

The happiest thing is my princesz come kl and go out with me. although i don't know what's our relationship. I still glad that she willing go out with me. I knew her more and more understand her. She is cute in picture and more mature in real person and you are cute too. You say u love yourself more, you say people don't understand you. Give a chance let people understand you. Maybe we are not near to each other, sometimes we just argue alot. Everytime we argue, it made my hear tear apart. Do you know how hurt when we were arguing? No matter how much you hurt me, i just wanted to tell you. I will still here for you, because i know that i love you. You may not believe me. I can tell you, i am that kind of person, maybe people think i am stupid, idiot and brainless. Just now we almost argue again, i don't know why you telling me that you miss him, do you know how i feel when someone i love tell me that she miss someone else? I think most of the guy will gone crazy. I don't know why and i don't understand, maybe i am just too retard to understand all those thing. Nothing much i can do about it, i only can wish you happy with him and wish you luck in your work. Maybe when you see this is already pass a long time ago or maybe you won't notice this post. I will not regret to the thing i did all along and i know what i am doing.

Well, lately just watch I am Legend. is a good movie thought. Too bad the Shelby just come out for not enough 5min. I thought it was his car all along the movie because i saw the trailer, all he use is Ford car. The part touch me is the part when Sam (a dog) died and he cry. It make me remind sometimes how lonely am i when you can't get anyone to help you. When your heart was so pain, that you wanted to cry but you know you need to stay strong to go on with your life. When you heart is broken and you need to pick it up yourself. Did you think of die when you can't bare with the pain you taken?

Hitman

2007-11-28T20:28:00.000+08:00

Hitman, although i didn't play the game before but i know how the character is. The movie is poor in storyline but the actor is kinda good, i like his face when he is angry. A lot of audi car been used, all is kinda cool too bad don't have R8 :X

Well, just a another kinda boring week. I thought this morning got squash practice unfortunately my teammate didn't arrange the time yet. Oh well, i am a suck captain anyway. Tomorrow going for level2 squash, hope it won't be so hard -_-|| One of my teammate gonna leave because he joining for one credit hour only, his name is Jeff. Wish him luck and hope he can graduate. Don't know why i hope i can change my car when i was 21 years old. I hope i can graduate that time and find a work. So that i can manage to get my 2nd car. Maybe i can get one 2nd sport car for my 2nd car hahaha, like EVO 8? Nissan Silvia S15? RX-8 maybe hahaha. My baby gonna finish her spm exam on next Tuesday. Wish her can get great result and of course hope to meet her soon, miss her alot. I get a normal Amp for mun tat birthday present and i wanna get myself a drop-in Air filter, hope can improve my acceleration and reduce my fuel consumption. Hope my father help me put Tinted and then i can change my steering and my interior so that become more nice. Gonna use my chinese new year money since he gonna come back during CNY. Doing nothing lately, just gaming and feel freaking lazy to study. Tomorrow got test and i still sitting here blogging, listen music and gaming.

Today dinner, i tried to cook lemon flavour chicken. I failed, i can't bring out the lemon flavor. Maybe i didn't do something right or maybe i need to add some sugar. Just try it next time. Then my onion rice is sort of success, rice full of onion taste haha.

I think i am just too bored, see my solitaire 46sec a game? Beat me and give me your screen shot. Don't give me crap photoshop picture. I think i better off to study, bye!

Beowulf

2007-11-23T17:16:00.000+08:00

Recently just watch Beowulf, is some 3-D animated movie. Not bad thought, is funny.

Yesterday just finish my squash level 1 test, i think i can pass. About my great grandmother is fine now, just need stay in hospital for few day.

December is coming soon, well lot of people ask me got what plan during Christmas. Well, don't have. Just another lonely Christmas i think. Hope someone can celebrate with me :3
Lately just busy playing Silkroad online and some web game. Nothing to do much, always alone at home thought. Plan to mod abit about my car before going back ipoh, maybe Air filter, or some LED. Don't know yet, need to see financial got problem or not. Mun tat birthday is coming soon, well half month more. Need to get him present, don't know what he want. Well, it seem another weekend will be wasted this week. I should go out and get some star buck coffee..maybe tomorrow. Anyone want some star buck coffee? Leave me message and i belanja HAHAHAHA

Excited, afraid and sad?

2007-11-21T14:08:00.000+08:00

This week kinda lot of thing happen to me compare last few week, yesterday William give me present for my birthday. Thanks bro. I like it so much, haha. I am chewing the gum and i decided to get some coffee with the cup. I am kinda afraid for tomorrow, squash test. Just can't practice much and need to test. Just hope i can pass. Just now my dad called me and tell me that my great grandmother in hospital now and having operation today, just pray she will be fine. And someone celebrate my birthday 2 day ago, thanks for spend time with me. I appreciate so much.

Well, is time to go class. Continue later or other days.

最後的風度 - Check it out this song, i like it

Normal

2007-11-16T22:02:00.000+08:00

How hard you try to get someone heart? How long you take to get someone fall in love with you?
Do you feel even give up before? Do you get the thing you wanted? Do you ever feel heart broke?

Love, is something i don't really understand, is something i can't get. It seem no matter how hard i tried, i can't get the thing i want. Maybe i didn't try hard enough, but it seem the effort i put in didn't show any result. Is like back to square 1. What can i do to get you? You know how afraid i am when you give me the question this evening? Do you know i almost break down? Distance is the problem? Communication is the problem? Can you tell me what's the problem? I don't know...it seem like a maze without exit. Maybe in your life, lot of guy around, i am just an ordinary guy. I can't deny that i am normal, i am not rich, i am not handsome, i don't have thing that can make you fall on me. I tried..i tried so hard to get near you, i tried so hard to get you... I might not the perfect one, i know that i love you more than others. i know i care about you more than others. Maybe that's not enough for you, i want to give you all i have. I just need your answer...

Life

2007-11-12T20:49:00.000+08:00

This blog seem dead lately, is like few weeks never update my blog.

This few week alot of thing happen, like my birthday on 6, then go back ipoh on 7 for 4 days holiday there. In ipoh, 4 days seem like so long and alot of thing happened. Like on the first day mun tat and me went back to ipoh, we went out to yum cha and one of my fren follow us. We chatting and we saw a Datsun with green light, is some freaking old car with those stupid green light to show off in ipoh. all of us laughing there and my fren say he know him. Then we put up a race with him, result? Mun tat won with his semi-stock satria. Won in 2nd gear 6rpm. Luls, then i play with the stupid crap car with follow him behind and the bastard told my fren that i can't chase up with his car. Rite, if he got dick to play with me. Oh well, he suck btw.

So how's my birthday? It pretty suck anyway, i did nothing special on it. Just went to timesquare bowling and dinner, thanks to mun tat. On that day, i pretty sad...just forget about it. Dinner at Gasolin, the food there suck, the service there suck and the environment suck. Rating? 0.5/5 is the mark i would give.

Don't know why don't feel like study anymore, lost interest in it. If i quit, i scare i will be regret on it. Study is the time i most enjoy and free. I must hold on and finish it no matter what. Btw, spm started on today, just wish everyone good luck in their exam. I miss her so much, i don't know she knew it anot, but still i wanna say i miss you.

Btw, Happy birthday Pooipooi. maybe is too late and you won't visit my blog haha

Midnight

2007-10-26T00:33:00.000+08:00

What are you doing now? Sleeping i guess.

I am still awake.

I hope you were beside me, or i wish i were beside you now.

I been asking myself lately, how much i love you, it seem like i can't find the answer at all.

I just know that i treat you like my baby, i wanna pamper you, i wanna love you, i wanna be with you so much, i want to take care you and i want to make you smile.

I hope i can be the best for you
I hope i can be the one for you

I always say people stupid, but the stupid guy in the world is me.
Because you giving chance to me and i didn't appreciate it.

My love story won't complete without you.
I don't know what can i give you in the future but i will give you happiness.
I don't know what happen to us in the future but i hope the one beside me is you.

I hope you allow me to love you, give me a chance to love you.